Hiatus

[hahy-ey-tuhs] –noun, plural -tus⋅es, -tus. 1. a break or interruption in the continuity of a work, series, action, etc.

I was a pretty freakishly huge fan of Moonlighting in my teens. Anyone who called me on the phone between 9 and 10 pm on Tuesday nights (and late in the show’s run, Sundays) would be severely berated for even thinking of interrupting it. The show’s schedule was haphazard at best, constantly falling behind and setting up long runs of repeats. Then at one point I read that the show was going on hiatus. Hiatus? I thought… What the fuck is that? What’s happened to Bruce???

Turned out it’s a break. And that’s what I’m doing.

It would make me a hypocrite and a liar to keep writing right now. And my thoughts have been in the darker shades as of late anyway, so I’ve been (and will be) taking some time to try to get my head on straight, and find my low-fat mojo.

I can’t keep writing this blog when I can’t even do most of the shit I’ve been writing about. Ever since the marathon I’ve done next to nothing to keep myself together. For the first time in a long time, I seriously cannot find the everyday (or even every once in a while) will to be healthy, to be better. I’m doing nothing, and that is, well, unsettling.